Little green light

There's a little green light, it's drives me nuts but it keeps me sane. This little green light flashes every time our daughter breathes or moves. At night when she is settled in her cot, I stare at this little green light waiting on the next flash. Holding my breath, willing it to flash. Sometimes it lingers a little longer, it's not flashing. I hear a grunt and then it flashes. Who knows what that little person does at night, in her sleep but she sure does give mama a fright.

I watch this little green light as I drift off to sleep, I swear I see it in my dreams! Each morning I'm thankful we made it through the night before. Each morning I'm thankful my child is alive. Other mothers are thankful for a lie in, I however am thankful to be woke at 2am, 4am, 6am or whenever she so wishes to wake. The sound of her stirring, of her dreaming, is music to my ears. Each time I pick her up to feed her, I stare at her beauty, the peacefulness in her face. I sit with my hand on her chest feeling every breath. I wish I had taken each moment, each breath Angus took and treasured it. But you never think you will need to remember what it felt like to feel your child breathe, until he stops.